Becoming My Best Self Log

May 10,2022

It has been almost 5 years and I still can’t believe that I am trying to do this.

When I say this, I mean being consistent. It has never been my forte.

I end up jumping from job to job, idea to idea, and I never seem to finish one.

Jack of all trades and master of none my mom always says.

Well, she isn’t wrong. I stopped writing this blog just so I can venture into the social media realm, and yet here I am again.

Back to writing, back to the start.

I must say that I am not the person I used to be back in 2018.

I learned to love myself a little more no matter what size.

I finally started to indulge in what I wanted.

I realized that it is okay to voice your true wants in life.

And I learned that it is okay to pick back up where you left off.

Truth be told, I never gave this blog a fighting chance.

When I marvel at the fact that over 1,000 people came by this blog over the years just to read my old work, it makes me wonder.

if I actually stuck with it in the hard times how far I would be.

But then I realize that had I done that, I would not know as much as I do about my interest or myself without those interests.

The time was needed and the change is done.

——————————————————————————————————————–

June 11,2018

Wow, so many months have passed.

Who knew that I would come this far!

I started this journey at 205 pounds around this time last year.

I was so internally unhappy, turning the supposedly happy age of 21.

I planned a party I eventually canceled because a lot of people bailed out.

I may have not said it then, but I felt so alone. I was struggling with so much emotional baggage from the past year that I didn’t know where to start.

Every time I looked into the mirror I saw a big brown frowning monster looking back. I tried everything, and nothing worked.

I still saw myself as a fat pig that needed to do something quick to hide it all.

I wanted so much to be like all the other girls I was around: sexy, flawless, and beautiful, but I, unfortunately, don’t have that gene.

Everything I put on that is supposed to look good, always somehow ends up looking like a bunch of rags on my body.

I would always get discouraged and walk right out of the store and mope the rest of the day through.

I was honestly tired of all this and made a vow for the next year to lose at least 10 pounds.

Why ten pounds? Well, I have some space for error, since I can be very inconsistent 😁.

Well, that’s how I started this journey. There were a lot of ups and downs, trials and errors, but I managed to go from 205 pounds to stepping on the scale and starting at the beautiful number of 180 pounds.

I not only lost 25 pounds, but I also kept it off!

I have never been this happy and free in my life. I can wear my swimsuit now without fear, and even if others negatively look at me,

I don’t care. I worked hard to get where I am and I want to keep striving to better.


March 1, 2018

Fast Forward two weeks and we are here. How time really flies. I never realized that I personally haven’t been writing my progress on here. I need to get better at this. I officially started to put all my important blog deadlines in my planner and on my phone to set as reminders. I have to do this right! Alright, So how have I been for the last two weeks? Weirdly, great! My mom and I are doing this together, so we are learning new things every day. We aim to do at least 10000 steps a day, if we do at least 6000 we are good. We noticed for our body types (since they are the same) we bloat whenever we eat bread or rice/pasta so we cut it completely out of our diet. We only eat fruits, veggies, and protein. It is so hard!!! I really do miss rice and pasta. Spaghetti with meatballs is my favorite thing to eat. Help me!!!!! Luckily, for a while, I haven’t had a real craving for it. Water became our best friend. You hear all the weight loss YouTubers or fitness gurus always gripe about it, but you have no idea how true it is. When I was in Walmart with my mom we fell upon these plastic bottles that hold exactly 8 glasses of water for the day. Looking at it at first made my heart sink. How was I going to be able to finish all that water? But I took a deep breath and started to take sips whenever I could. I was so surprised by how full I felt for most of the day when I drank water. Before I had to eat 3 plates of food to feel that full. This definitely is helping me not overeat. We also bought an electronic spiralizer! I was so excited. I recently used it to spiralize some zucchini to add to a chicken veggie stir fry we made from scratch.

Just to let you know, for the longest I have been looking for a “substitute” for pasta and couldn’t really find one. I tried baked spaghetti squash and I was scarred for life. The crunchy and funny-tasting “pasta” is not okay for me. But zucchini was always a veggie I neither liked nor hated. It is neutral tasting and not as crunchy which gives it an okay texture to make as noodles. It also pairs really well with tomato sauce, meaning I can have my pasta dinner again!! I was so happy that the zucchini noodles were a success. Now I really can have healthy pasta I will thoroughly enjoy. If you haven’t tried it, I really recommend it.

Oh yeah, within these two weeks I ate out at Ruby Tuesdays, and guess what? It didn’t become a cheat day for me!! I had the bourbon salmon with a caesar salad and grilled zucchini. I was so full from eating the salad that I had to carry the rest of my food home. Guess all that water drinking really did its job πŸ™‚

As of today, I am 189.4 pounds. Some people maybe lose more, but I am happy with the result. This week I haven’t been as active as last, so that might have been a factor in my progress. Honestly, I don’t care about how little or big the progress is, all I care about is just progress I cant wait to see how far I go πŸ™‚ Love Y’all SUMIRE OUT!!!


February 16, 2018

The 16th has come already. I guess that time flies by so much. I am now on day 3 of my transformation and I guess it’s going fine. I have been walking 6000 steps each day and eating healthy as much as I can. It is super hard but I am doing it. I really want to add HIIT workouts to my routine. I really want to see progress. Hopefully, in a few weeks, I can say that I have progressed.


February 13, 2018

The start of it all. Let me tell you, I tend to do things out of the blue. But I guess many people are like that. We walk through life as if everything is working fine the way it I, even when it’s not until there is some godlike revelation of some kind that makes us grovel into submission to change our lives. For me, however, that is not the case. I have had my godlike revelation months ago but keep relapsing into my old behavior. I can’t help it. Doing things that I feel comfortable with doesn’t make me evil, just human. I like to be brutally honest when no one and I means no one asked my opinion. I love wallowing in my own sorrows even though I know that doesn’t help, and I love eating a big bag of chips by myself, knowing full well of my future filled with diabetes and a weak heart. I figured if I don’t turn my life around, I might end up like those miserable grandmas that regret their lives. So, I have officially decided to start my journey of becoming my “Best” self. What better way to keep myself to it than to document every day as it comes? I know, I am a total genius!! Anyway, I started today by getting my health in the right place.

I am a 5’7,21-year-old Caribbean American girl who now weighs 195 pounds (lost 10 pounds over the summer and somehow kept it off thank God). Honestly, I really don’t know how I got to this point. It’s all a blur. I was never a big person growing up, so that can’t be my excuse. Little by little the weight piled on and soon enough I began to realize the person I saw in the mirror was not someone I recognized. It is so scary when you let yourself go like I did. Sometimes it is really hard to bounce back from. But, I am still giving it a try. My mom (who is also doing it with me) and I decided to go on strict water, veggies, and protein diet. Sounds fun right?

Wrong!!! I am dying right now. Believe it or not, it’s not because of the food, but what the food is doing to my body. I AM FOREVER ON THE TOILET!!!! Someone, please help!!!! I have never relied on this way before, and it is getting harder to focus with the feel of my stomach rumbling and bubbling all the time. I really starting to regret this off the bat, but I won’t give up. Hopefully, my body would adjust. But anyway, that was my day. I’ll see what happens tomorrow. See Yall SUMIRE OUT~~~~

May 10,2022

It has been almost 5 years and I still can’t believe that I am trying to do this.

When I say this, I mean being consistent. It has never been my forte.

I end up jumping from job to job, idea to idea, and I never seem to finish one.

Jack of all trades and master of none my mom always says.

Well, she isn’t wrong. I stopped writing this blog just so I can venture into the social media realm, and yet here I am again.

Back to writing, back to the start.

I must say that I am not the person I used to be back in 2018.

I learned to love myself a little more no matter what size.

I finally started to indulge in what I wanted.

I realized that it is okay to voice your true wants in life.

And I learned that it is okay to pick back up where you left off.

Truth be told, I never gave this blog a fighting chance.

When I marvel at the fact that over 1,000 people came by this blog over the years just to read my old work, it makes me wonder.

if I actually stuck with it in the hard times how far I would be.

But then I realize that had I done that, I would not know as much as I do about my interest or myself without those interests.

The time was needed and the change is done.

——————————————————————————————————————–

June 11,2018

Wow, so many months have passed.

Who knew that I would come this far!

I started this journey at 205 pounds around this time last year.

I was so internally unhappy, turning the supposedly happy age of 21.

I planned a party I eventually canceled because a lot of people bailed out.

I may have not said it then, but I felt so alone. I was struggling with so much emotional baggage from the past year that I didn’t know where to start.

Every time I looked into the mirror I saw a big brown frowning monster looking back. I tried everything, and nothing worked.

I still saw myself as a fat pig that needed to do something quick to hide it all.

I wanted so much to be like all the other girls I was around: sexy, flawless, and beautiful, but I, unfortunately, don’t have that gene.

Everything I put on that is supposed to look good, always somehow ends up looking like a bunch of rags on my body.

I would always get discouraged and walk right out of the store and mope the rest of the day through.

I was honestly tired of all this and made a vow for the next year to lose at least 10 pounds.

Why ten pounds? Well, I have some space for error, since I can be very inconsistent 😁.

Well, that’s how I started this journey. There were a lot of ups and downs, trials and errors, but I managed to go from 205 pounds to stepping on the scale and starting at the beautiful number of 180 pounds.

I not only lost 25 pounds, but I also kept it off!

I have never been this happy and free in my life. I can wear my swimsuit now without fear, and even if others negatively look at me,

I don’t care. I worked hard to get where I am and I want to keep striving to better.


March 1, 2018

Fast Forward two weeks and we are here. How time really flies. I never realized that I personally haven’t been writing my progress on here. I need to get better at this. I officially started to put all my important blog deadlines in my planner and on my phone to set as reminders. I have to do this right! Alright, So how have I been for the last two weeks? Weirdly, great! My mom and I are doing this together, so we are learning new things every day. We aim to do at least 10000 steps a day, if we do at least 6000 we are good. We noticed for our body types (since they are the same) we bloat whenever we eat bread or rice/pasta so we cut it completely out of our diet. We only eat fruits, veggies, and protein. It is so hard!!! I really do miss rice and pasta. Spaghetti with meatballs is my favorite thing to eat. Help me!!!!! Luckily, for a while, I haven’t had a real craving for it. Water became our best friend. You hear all the weight loss YouTubers or fitness gurus always gripe about it, but you have no idea how true it is. When I was in Walmart with my mom we fell upon these plastic bottles that hold exactly 8 glasses of water for the day. Looking at it at first made my heart sink. How was I going to be able to finish all that water? But I took a deep breath and started to take sips whenever I could. I was so surprised by how full I felt for most of the day when I drank water. Before I had to eat 3 plates of food to feel that full. This definitely is helping me not overeat. We also bought an electronic spiralizer! I was so excited. I recently used it to spiralize some zucchini to add to a chicken veggie stir fry we made from scratch.

Just to let you know, for the longest I have been looking for a “substitute” for pasta and couldn’t really find one. I tried baked spaghetti squash and I was scarred for life. The crunchy and funny-tasting “pasta” is not okay for me. But zucchini was always a veggie I neither liked nor hated. It is neutral tasting and not as crunchy which gives it an okay texture to make as noodles. It also pairs really well with tomato sauce, meaning I can have my pasta dinner again!! I was so happy that the zucchini noodles were a success. Now I really can have healthy pasta I will thoroughly enjoy. If you haven’t tried it, I really recommend it.

Oh yeah, within these two weeks I ate out at Ruby Tuesdays, and guess what? It didn’t become a cheat day for me!! I had the bourbon salmon with a caesar salad and grilled zucchini. I was so full from eating the salad that I had to carry the rest of my food home. Guess all that water drinking really did its job πŸ™‚

As of today, I am 189.4 pounds. Some people maybe lose more, but I am happy with the result. This week I haven’t been as active as last, so that might have been a factor in my progress. Honestly, I don’t care about how little or big the progress is, all I care about is just progress I cant wait to see how far I go πŸ™‚ Love Y’all SUMIRE OUT!!!


February 16, 2018

The 16th has come already. I guess that time flies by so much. I am now on day 3 of my transformation and I guess it’s going fine. I have been walking 6000 steps each day and eating healthy as much as I can. It is super hard but I am doing it. I really want to add HIIT workouts to my routine. I really want to see progress. Hopefully, in a few weeks, I can say that I have progressed.


February 13, 2018

The start of it all. Let me tell you, I tend to do things out of the blue. But I guess many people are like that. We walk through life as if everything is working fine the way it I, even when it’s not until there is some godlike revelation of some kind that makes us grovel into submission to change our lives. For me, however, that is not the case. I have had my godlike revelation months ago but keep relapsing into my old behavior. I can’t help it. Doing things that I feel comfortable with doesn’t make me evil, just human. I like to be brutally honest when no one and I means no one asked my opinion. I love wallowing in my own sorrows even though I know that doesn’t help, and I love eating a big bag of chips by myself, knowing full well of my future filled with diabetes and a weak heart. I figured if I don’t turn my life around, I might end up like those miserable grandmas that regret their lives. So, I have officially decided to start my journey of becoming my “Best” self. What better way to keep myself to it than to document every day as it comes? I know, I am a total genius!! Anyway, I started today by getting my health in the right place.

I am a 5’7,21-year-old Caribbean American girl who now weighs 195 pounds (lost 10 pounds over the summer and somehow kept it off thank God). Honestly, I really don’t know how I got to this point. It’s all a blur. I was never a big person growing up, so that can’t be my excuse. Little by little the weight piled on and soon enough I began to realize the person I saw in the mirror was not someone I recognized. It is so scary when you let yourself go like I did. Sometimes it is really hard to bounce back from. But, I am still giving it a try. My mom (who is also doing it with me) and I decided to go on strict water, veggies, and protein diet. Sounds fun right?

Wrong!!! I am dying right now. Believe it or not, it’s not because of the food, but what the food is doing to my body. I AM FOREVER ON THE TOILET!!!! Someone, please help!!!! I have never relied on this way before, and it is getting harder to focus with the feel of my stomach rumbling and bubbling all the time. I really starting to regret this off the bat, but I won’t give up. Hopefully, my body would adjust. But anyway, that was my day. I’ll see what happens tomorrow. See Yall SUMIRE OUT~~~~

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